I often come here to explain myself. To give someone insight to who I am. I think I hope someone will read this and understand me. I don’t want sympathy. I don’t want you to coddle me. I want someone to read me. I want someone to read what I have to write and really fucking know me. I want someone to maybe not feel the way I do, but they read my words, my feelings, my fears, my past and I want them to just melt into me.
More than anything, I don’t want to scare them away. I don’t want to be seen differently after what I say, or if you see me differently don’t see this negatively. I am complex and I am ever changing. Watch me grow and expand to my fullest potential but also hold me when I break and fall into pieces, be there when I build myself again. If you pay attention, you’ll notice I am not quite the same as I once was before, but don’t leave because of these changes. Grow with me and appreciate the new, remember though, who I was before the break, remember her and love her too. Because she is still there.